Before I start my spiel, I just want to say that I am bringing this topic to the blog to see if anyone else has ever experienced it. If so, please tell me about it. ALSO, I am sharing some eye candy to keep you awake. Kayla and I styled this shoot a while back for fun. There’s a cocktail recipe at the end if you want to make it.
…..Changing, maturing, evolving, growing, call it what you want, I feel my style is changing and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Maybe not that hard, but this IS what I do all day every day, so when I finally swallowed the realization that my style is changing before my own eyes, I was in a bit of shock. To be honest, I thought I had my style nailed down. As in done, sealed the deal, end of story.
I knew I needed collected, bold, color, pattern, lived in, vintage…what else? Those words pretty much defined me, and I was great with it.
Now I want collected yet REFINED. Bold yet UNDERSTATED. Who am I?????? It’s not that I don’t want my space to feel lived-in, I do, just in a different way. I want it to feel approachable, which in turn feels lived-in to me. And the refined thing…to me, that just means “put together”. You know, when you describe the lady that wears pearls, a suit (??) and heels, you might say, “she’s refined”. That might have been a terrible example because that lady sounds awfully stuffy. Stuffy is my worst nightmare, so I don’t want that. I don’t want to take the collected out of it because without that, you have a Pottery Barn showroom. I just want my space to feel a bit more put together if that’s not too much to ask.
The thing is, I took this realization by surprise at first because I thought I knew what I wanted and why I wanted it. My thoughts were “I’m not fancy, why do I want refined???” But once I started digging deeper I’ve come to realize that those attributes are what I am currently craving in my own life. So maybe I AM ready for a style change. Not a full on style change…..just an update.
I’m blaming every bit of this on the One Room Challenge. These past six weeks were a whirlwind, and that project almost got the best of me. It was my first ever neutral room, and if I’m being completely honest, before that project I kind of looked past neutral spaces because I felt they lacked soul. I can remember designing and planning that space and thinking, “this isn’t going to be ENOUGH”. But it was enough in the end (at least for my parents and I). I proved to myself that I can create a neutral room and it be enough for me. In no way am I saying that I am taking the neutral route now, but that room really opened my eyes. That space feels refined to me, and every piece of my being wants that as far as my professional life goes, which is the only part of my life that I am referring to here. Most days my head just spins with ideas and things I want to do to grow or I have so many little things going on and not enough big things that I just want SO BAD to be intentional with every single little thought that comes in my head. Is that too much to ask??? So yes, I am craving some intentional, refined YET understated (can’t forget that understated) in my actual life too. By the way…intentional seems to be a hot word right now. I’m not using it to be trendy. I can’t think of another word to use for it? What I’m trying to say is that I want to be more thought out and planned…….
So after I finished the ORC, I sat back for a brief second and then my wheels started turning again. My style was changing before my little eyes. From there I got on Pinterest and started googling my new words. “Refined”, “Classic”, “Bold”, “Understated”…….. Pinterest can be a good search engine at times, but it wasn’t especially helpful this time. I’m still soul searching though….and cocktail reaching.
So……..can you relate or should I delete this post and pretend like it never happened?
*Disclaimer – This random rant was only about my own personal style. When it comes down to it, that doesn’t matter AT ALL when working with a client to find their style and create their space. It doesn’t matter what I am personally most drawn to, only what the client wants and needs. Just thought I should get that out there that while this might seem like clouded judgement, that’s only the case with my own house, which is irrelevant.
Oh, and here’s that cocktail.
Sea Breeze Cocktail:
- 4 oz of Cranberry Juice
- 1 oz of Grapefruit Juice
- 1.5 oz of Vodka
- Grapefruit Wedge
- Pour vodka over ice
- Add Cranberry Juice
- Top with Grapefruit Juice
- Garnish with a grapefruit wedge or lime
Photos: Kayla Snell