Before I sat down to write this post I was planning on something else, and that post will probably come next week..or the next…
Chances are you usually visit my blog for decor & design tips/advice/inspiration or maybe you’re just a really good friend to me…. I think it’s important to be candid as a blog writer and I try my best to do that, which leads me to this post of rambling thoughts…
School has officially started across the country and I couldn’t help but stop for a moment. If you would have asked me 15 months ago what I was “up to” I would have told you (with excitement) I was partaking in the back to school frenzy as a teacher. I would be anxious, adrenaline driven and a bit frantic, but I would have been doing what I thought I was supposed to be doing. I started my blog in January of 2014 and within 6 months I decided not to go into teaching. I was offered a teaching job at my dream school (after one year of job searching) and I anxiously declined. My family was very supportive and told me to follow my heart, but I know they had to have been like WHAT?? I was extremely excited to make a huge career and life decision. Although now looking back I can’t help but wonder what in the WORLD I was thinking because I made NO money through blogging and had no real clients at the time. I knew the potential blogging had, but I had no proof to show I could do it.
To be honest, I’ve never looked backed. I naturally have a lot of self doubt and sometimes allow myself to question giving up a “service” job (shaping the lives of innocent kids, is there more of a service job than that??) for a “frivolous” job. It is what it is. I wake up most every morning genuinely excited to get to work (after coffee). I am doing something that I absolutely love and although it consumes my (our) life, I am so happy. And I don’t use the term “being happy” loosely. I am a tough critic on what makes me REALLY happy. ha.
Speaking of something that consumes our lives, my career does that. Working from home is a very interesting task. There are of course ups and downs to both sides (working for yourself vs. working for someone else). I will never fully understand those ups and downs of working in a corporate environment because I would literally crawl under my desk and cry all day and never come out. I know that my introverted, people-pleaser self would shrivel up and die in a corporate environment. I’m obviously where I need to be. But the ups and down of working for yourself in your home 5 steps from your bed? I learned those very fast. Getting to be your own boss is a neat thing. I think I produce my best work when I am the person pushing myself because I am my toughest critic. I also feel that I never “leave” work, which is how my career seems to consume our lives…. I usually stop working when Parker gets home and then go back to work after we eat dinner. Sometimes I don’t and when I don’t I feel guilty and like I should be working. Basically my mind never stops. It seems to be the sacrifice for working for yourself? Right now I am working on separating work and non work times. It seems to be quite the challenge.
When writing a post I always add the top photo last. (the photo that shows on the main page before “read more”) I knew this post would have a filler picture because I obviously didn’t want to go photo-less and only have words before the “read more” because I think about trivial things like that that no one else notices. I came across this photo taken by my friend, Kayla, (pictured above) and actually laughed out loud. The look on my face is a perfect representation of me most days. I am genuinely having fun but also look like a deer in headlights. Combine the two and that face is what you get. I will add that the deer in headlights is usually a good feeling for me. I like feeling adrenaline when I work and generally never knowing what the next day will look like. A very basic comparison is a rollercoaster: full of the good kind of adrenaline but also very terrifying.
A DIY Fail:
Originally this was supposed to be a contributor post for someone else. I was already late getting it to her and then this happened right before it was too dark to shoot another project. Really just confirmed my hate for diy projects. I’ve said it before, but I do them to achieve a look I want but can’t afford (the big projects). I started as a diy blog but quickly learned diy is not my thing. This was my attempt at marbled glass using nail polish. There are lots of great tutorials out there but my nail polish just clumped and didn’t at all do what it was supposed to do…
What it was supposed to look like….
successful project via Lovely Indeed
That night came and went and I ended up putting together something else for my contributor post.
All in all I’m in a very happy place. I’m sure that all of the business owners out there can vouch that owning your own business means pouring your heart, soul and LIFE into it. It is a very frustrating, yet fulfilling thing and I have so much to learn. Sometimes I feel stagnant (that might be a little dramatic, but I constantly want to me moving FASTER and BETTER than I am), and I think that goes with the territory of being your own boss. A lot has happened in a short amount of time and I am always excited for the next day.